tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2245451057793998522023-06-20T09:27:44.475-04:00journalistsmidlifecrisisA long-time journalist contemplates an uncertain future in an uncertain business. Who ever knew living one day at a time could be such an an adventure.Jeff Arnoldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04088321986393277112noreply@blogger.comBlogger17125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-224545105779399852.post-34731776710706549752012-04-12T15:56:00.003-04:002012-04-12T16:30:46.391-04:00Not in my skill set: Automotive 101<div>As a fairly accomplished journalist, I take pride in the variety of skills that have gotten me to where I am.</div><div>I consider myself a solid reporter, an ace at building relationships and a compelling storyteller. </div><div>Somehow, I must have missed the class on changing a tire in college.</div><div>I consider myself fairly intelligent, well-read and well-traveled, but when it comes to car maintenance, I'm definitely not at the head of the class.</div><div>For the past nine years, I've thanked God that my wife's father owns his own automotive repair shop, saving me the time and energy (not to mention plenty of money) when it comes to taking care of our cars.</div><div>For almost the same amount of time, I've told myself countless times that I should learn some automotive basics - changing the oil, changing a flat tire, etc. Needless to say, I never did it and hoped that would never come back to bite me.</div><div>Today, it bit me. Hard. Right in the backside.</div><div>It's probably payback for the number of times I have continued speeding past a stranded motorist on the side of the freeway, always in a hurry to get to wherever I'm going. I don't know how many times, I've seen someone with a flat (or worse) a shredded tire and said to myself, 'It really sucks to be them right now."</div><div>Today, that bit me too. Again, the bit was uncomfortably hard and yes, right in the same location.</div><div>We've known for some time that the front two tires on my wife's car needed to be changed. We put it off and put it off, knowing eventually, we would get around to it. </div><div>With my wife driving my car this week, I drove in Ann Arbor for a Michigan football press conference. As usual, the trip was uneventful. Afterwards, I drove up State Street, thinking I heard something strange.</div><div>I've taught myself that noises are commonplace along busy thoroughfares and never figured for one moment that the sound I heard was coming from my car - and more specifically, my right left tire.</div><div>I almost stopped, but then figured, it would be fine. I entered I-94, sped up and almost immediately knew something wasn't right. My ride suddenly became bumpy, prompting me too cross over the right lane and onto the shoulder.</div><div>Traffic sped by. I got out of the car, looked at the tire which was shredded and nearly cut in two. I smelled the god-awful smell of burned rubber that typically only NASCAR fanatics tend to love. I think I could have swung an axe at my tire for 30 minutes and it wouldn't have looked as bad as the remnants of what already a tire that should have been retired long ago.</div><div>I considered my options. I could call my father-in-law as I had many times before. But seeing he is 150 miles away in Grand Rapids, I opted for another route. I texted a fellow sportswriter and asked how knowledgable he was in changing a tire.</div><div>"None, sorry," he responded.</div><div>At that moment, I discovered something. Sportswriters tend to be pretty loyal and willing to help one another out when we can. Yeah, sometimes we think we know it all, but this one thing is true.</div><div>Not very many of us know how to change a flat.</div><div>I called a friend at work, who said he was about to go into a meeting and he'd be at least an hour. I called another friend. No answer. </div><div>I thought for half a second about trying to figure out how to change the tire myself myself. About then, five cars zoomed past, making me reconsider my options.</div><div>Kneeling by the side of a major freeway with speeding cars mere inches away didn't seem like the best way to go. Not if I wanted to see tomorrow.</div><div>I googled more options on my phone. We're not AAA members. Our insurance company doesn't offer roadside assistance. Finally, I learned that our insurance company would reimburse us for a towing company to come out and change the tire for me.</div><div>I called Brewer Towing, which dispatched a truck within 10 minutes. Ten minutes later, my new best friend Josh, had the tire switched out and threw the shredded tire into the trunk. After the insurance reimbursement, my fee for the service will be $5.</div><div>It's not very often watching someone do their job makes me feel inadequate. But today as Josh jacked my car up, removed the lug nuts and then the tire, I have to admit I didn't feel very smart.</div><div>I know cars are his business, but as I stood behind the car watching him work as traffic flew by, I was thankful I didn't try to do it myself.</div><div>One, it would have taken a heck of a lot longer than 10 minutes. Two, I'm not sure I would have lived long enough to write about the experience. </div><div>I still don't know if I'll ever learn to change a flat tire. But after today, I'm sure I will give it a second thought before I find myself stranded on the side of the freeway again.</div><div>After all, it's never too late to add something new to your skill set.</div><div>Even if it's just fixing a flat.</div>Jeff Arnoldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04088321986393277112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-224545105779399852.post-82634065813648825102012-02-13T10:45:00.002-05:002012-02-13T11:05:14.825-05:00It's for a good cause, really it isThe email came from a friend.<div>The emails from this friend are always harmless, often including an invitation to come over for dinner or to meet her and her husband for a beer at our favorite pub.</div><div>Not this time.</div><div>To paraphrase the e-mail. We've decided to kill ourselves. Want to come?</div><div>OK, it wasn't that bad. Or that serious. I'm half-kidding.</div><div>The email was an invitation to join our friends in Chicago. We love Chicago. We visit on a regular basis.</div><div>The email was an invitation to join our friends walking around Chicago. We love Chicago. We like to walk.</div><div>Harmless, right?</div><div>Hold that thought.</div><div>The email was an invitation to walk and possibly run around Chicago. For 26.2 miles. With 45,000 of our closest friends in October. In the Chicago Marathon. For charity.</div><div>OK, what???</div><div>The invitation was not only a challenge, but a friendly one at that. Wrote our friend: "We can't think of anyone we'd rather walk around Chicago with than you guys."</div><div>Kill 'em with kindness, right?</div><div>A day later, I was in an informational meeting about the Chicago Marathon. Out of the 170 people in the meeting, 80 percent had never done a marathon. Good to fit in, right?</div><div>Out of the 170 people in the meeting, approximately 169 were planning on running it.</div><div>Goodbye, majority.</div><div>Four days later, in the midst of my first Super Bowl work assignment, I sat at a friend's dining room table and registered for the Chicago Marathon. I kept telling myself, "You are NOT crazy." This is for a good cause. Sending clean drinking water to Africa. You can do this. You love Chicago. You've walked around most of the city.</div><div>Not all at once mind you, but you know your way around.</div><div>Interestingly enough, there was no "Can you walk 26.2 miles in one sitting" requirement. I guess the folks at the Chicago Marathon figure if you're signing up, you can walk or run 26.2 miles.</div><div>I filled out the application, paid the $150 entry fee and hit the submit button.</div><div>Maybe I should have known I was in trouble when a pop-up screen appeared.</div><div>"What have you done? Are you out of your #@%$& mind?"</div><div>Over the weekend, we made an appointment with a personal trainer at our gym. Personal trainers have this existence of killing you with kindness.</div><div>Emphasis on killing you.</div><div>The fitness assessment was the first step. Height, weight, body mass index testing, overall fitness test and a full-on look into our lifestyle. Is your life stressful? What do you eat for breakfast? Lunch? Dinner?</div><div>Are you freaking crazy?</div><div>My trainer suggests yoga to increase my flexibility. It will be good for you. It will prepare you for what you'll need to do to successfully reach the finish line. Then, the yoga instructor flips through a book with a dude contorting his body in poses that I swear to God were straight out of the Barnum and Bailey Circus manual.</div><div>This week, the journey begins. Over the next eight months, I will convince my body it can walk/run/crawl the Chicago marathon. I have plenty of support from my wife who is also taking part in the marathon.</div><div>I will take up residence at our gym. I will become one with the treadmill. I won't be scared of the elliptical machine anymore. I will embrace pushing myself and I will find a way to cross the finish line in Chicago in October.</div><div>It started with an email from a friend.</div><div>Hopefully by October, we'll still be on speaking terms. </div>Jeff Arnoldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04088321986393277112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-224545105779399852.post-35543025255374270822012-01-29T21:23:00.003-05:002012-01-29T22:11:40.360-05:00We the Jury....I don't have many guilty pleasures.<div>Starbucks is more of an addiction and my small fascination of being on "Man V. Food" at some point in my life borders on a sickness.</div><div>But I've always had this infatuation with television court dramas. I was hooked on "The Practice", passed on "Boston Legal" and grew up with "L.A. Law".</div><div>But because it was just TV, the guilty pleasure remained just that.</div><div>As a journalist, I am intrigued by real life dealings as it relates to those who choose to break the law and the consequences that accompany the actions of the accused. The concept of "innocent until proven guilty" had always been one I held to be true more out of Constitutional correctness than out of real life experience.</div><div>That changed last week when, for the first time, my courtroom drama guilty pleasure shifted to a front row seat.</div><div>For three days last week, I became known as Juror No. 8. Two months after receiving a summons to appear at the Frank Murphy Hall of Justice in downtown Detroit, I arrived at 7:45 a.m. Monday morning and waited.</div><div>Crammed into a standing room only waiting area with countless other Wayne County residents, I waited for my name to be called, secretly hoping my stay would be short and I could return to my normally-scheduled life.</div><div>Eight groups were called. My name was never mentioned. Oh, there were close calls - there were Jeffs and Jeffreys - but never a Jeffrey Paul Arnold. That is, until 9:45 a.m. when my name was grouped with 17 others.</div><div>"Damn," I muddled to the same people I had just mentioned to that we had to be getting close to being released.</div><div>With a red "Juror" sticker pressed to my shirt, I made my way to the elevator, traveled to the fourth floor and waited.</div><div>We were ushered into the courtroom where Judge Annette Berry welcomed us and told us we were potential jurors in a homicide case involving the 19-year-old kid sitting only feet away wearing a blue argyle sweater.</div><div>Having covered courts and cops during my first newspaper stop, the courtroom was not foreign to me. But I had always been there as an objective witness - not a willing participant charged with hearing the facts of the case and making up my mind whether the defendant was not guilty or guilty.</div><div>One by one, potential jurors made their way to the jury box and answered questions from the judge, determining whether they were suitable to serve.</div><div>Fifteen minutes passed. Some potential jurors were excused because of their difficulty understanding English. Others were let go because of religious objections while others had been victims of crimes themselves and weren't sure whether they could get past that when it came to determining innocence or guilt to the young man facing felony murder charges.</div><div>Two more jurors were released.</div><div>The court clerk reached into the bowl and pulled out another slip of paper. </div><div>Jeffrey Paul Arnold.</div><div>"Damn," I said to myself.</div><div>I took my seat in the jury box.</div><div>"Good morning, Mr. Arnold," the judge said. "How are you?"</div><div>Fine," I responded. "And yourself?"</div><div>"Fine," the judge said. "Thanks for asking."</div><div>The questions started. Where do you live? Are you married? How long? What does your wife do? What do you do?</div><div>Here was my chance.</div><div>"I'm a journalist," I answered.</div><div>The judge looked back with one of those, "Oh, that's nice," glances.</div><div>Minutes later, the attorneys made no objections to the 14 jurors now seated. Judge Berry released the rest and looked at us.</div><div>Our duties, she told us, were to be taken seriously. They were one of the highest honors bestowed on an American citizen - to hear the facts of the case and determine beyond a shadow of a doubt if the fellow American seating half a room away was innocent or guilty of those charges levied against him by the Wayne County Prosecutor's Office.</div><div>As many cases as I had watched on television, no longer could I walk away without leaving part of myself in that room. Over the next two days, I took careful notes as one witness after another testified on the behalf of the prosecution.</div><div>I took note of evidence, timelines, cell phone records. I listened intently, not wanting to miss anything that could, in essence, change the way I thought about the young man fighting for his life after allegedly taking the life of another.</div><div>We were instructed early on not to allow the emotions of the case to factor into our thinking. I did all I could to avoid looking at the defendant. But I had to. I had to see how he responded to charges levied against him. </div><div>I glanced at him as his brother, an accessory in the crime, testified against him after accepting a lesser charge in exchange for his testimony. I wondered if I could ever do that to my brother. I watched him as his best friend also testified against him - also accepting a lesser charge to testify to what he knew.</div><div>In my free moments - over lunch at nearby Greektown restaurants - I wondered what it would be like to deem a young man guilty of felony murder. I also thought what would happen if the prosecutor didn't prove her case and whether 12 of us could deliberate, return to the courtroom and issue a Not Guilty verdict.</div><div>By the end of closing arguments, my mind was made up. I have a feeling so were 13 other minds. We heard final instructions and prepared to go into deliberations.</div><div>The court clerk would pull two names out of the bowl and send those two jurors home without deliberating with the fellow jurors that we had spent the better part of 2 1/2 days with.</div><div>He reached into the bowl and pulled the first slip out.</div><div>"Juror No. 8 - Jeffrey Paul Arnold."</div><div>"Thank you for your service, Mr. Arnold," Judge Berry said.</div><div>Part of me was relieved. But another part of me was disappointed, wanting to finish the job we were charged to see to its completion.</div><div>As I walked out of the courtroom with Juror No. 13, part of me wanted to take one final glance at the defendant.</div><div>Did he care I was gone? Did he even look at me? Did he know that most of the people left in the jury box had likely already made up their minds?</div><div>I walked out and continued down St. Antoine Street, turned left by a large parking garage and shook the hand of Juror No. 13.</div><div>Part of me wanted to know how he would have voted. Part of me already knew. </div><div>Part of me wants to call Judge Berry's courtroom and find out what my fellow jurors decided. Part of me wants to know how long it took them to reach a decision.</div><div>I wonder if court dramas can be a guilty pleasure for me anymore. I will still be fascinated by The First 48, which follows the first 48 hours of a homicide investigation. I will still watch as jurors determine the fate of the defendant seated half a room away from them.</div><div>Part of me will consider what they are thinking before they issue their verdict.</div><div>Part of me thinks I already know.</div><div><br /></div>Jeff Arnoldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04088321986393277112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-224545105779399852.post-4522446958555876922011-03-25T22:02:00.003-04:002011-03-25T22:40:48.544-04:00Deja' vuIt's funny, really.<div>Two years ago, a month before my 40th birthday, I began this blog, believing at the time my journalism career could be in jeopardy.</div><div>I had worked for 17 years, all in newspaper, working my way toward what I hoped would be the job of my dreams. After four years at the Ann Arbor News, I was a Big Ten beat writer, covering a team that was making its first NCAA appearance in eight years. This is what I wanted. Then, it all changed.</div><div>While in Kansas City, I learned the Ann Arbor News was closing and giving way to a new media company. I didn't know what to make of the news. No newspaper in Ann Arbor? A website-driven news source? I was determined not to investigate it any farther.</div><div>But I knew if I didn't, it could spell the end of my career. It's not the way I wanted it to end. So I applied (albeit with great hesitation), landing a part-time job with AnnArbor.com hell-bent on trying something news.</div><div>Less than two years later, the things haven't changed.</div><div>Again, Michigan's basketball team made the NCAA Tournament. I was still a beat writer, covering hockey, prepared to cover Michigan's 21st straight to hockey's version of The Big Dance. The day before the playoffs began, I learned - this time first-hand - that my time working as a journalist in Ann Arbor was coming to an end.</div><div>Maybe, as my colleague Lon Horwedel wrote this week, I shouldn't have been surprised. Perhaps, the little subtle changes this year signaled something bigger. Maybe, there was a way I could survive this.</div><div>But two weeks after being laid off, I again find myself at a crossroads. The past two weeks have been a hellish roller coaster ride. A byline on SportsIllustrated.com. Another for ESPN.com, which I have been a contributor on for more than two years. Freelance hockey assignments and story-telling that makes me think maybe there's still something left.</div><div>But mixed into all of that was a lot of uncertainty and angst. The thought of filing the first unemployment claim in my life leaves me feeling unsettled. Wondering when the phone will ring with an prospective editor waiting to talk to me leaves me wondering if the phone will ring. </div><div>My faith tells me everything will be taken care of in due time. Be anxious for nothing for tomorrow will take care of itself. Deep down, I know that to be true. But somehow, that message from my heart hasn't yet reached my head.</div><div>The next weeks and months will be telling. I am determined, as I was two years ago, not to allow people that barely know me to tell me when my career as a journalist is over.</div><div>The people who know me best, the ones that have called, emailed and texted me over the past two weeks, know what I am capable of.</div><div>It's too bad the people making the decisions never realized what they were losing.</div><div>But if I have anything to say about it, they will soon.</div>Jeff Arnoldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04088321986393277112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-224545105779399852.post-35869992041873639772010-03-13T16:34:00.002-05:002010-03-13T16:47:43.548-05:00Elimination Saturday: Reflections from an empty rink<div><br /></div><div>Hockey history is everywhere inside Munn Ice Arena.</div><div><br /></div><div>Three Michigan State national championship banners hang over the rink, honoring accomplishments of teams past.</div><div><br /></div><div>At present, though, the Spartans immediate playoff history is anything but certain. This, a night after rival Michigan delivered a stunning opening game punch to the mouth – a 5-1 victory that gave the Wolverines an early edge in the best-of-three playoff series.</div><div><br /></div><div>The game was played in an arena that normally draws standing-room only crowds for Michigan State's tussles with its in-state rival. But on this night, the stands were half-empty, the crowd lethargic. </div><div><br /></div><div>"I was disappointed," said Red Berenson, who has overseen Michigan's storied program for the past 26 years.</div><div><br /></div><div>Disappointed. That, in one word summarized a crowd of just more than 3,000 that sat stunned for 2 1/2 hours watching their beloved Spartans picked apart by a lower-seeded Michigan team. </div><div><br /></div><div>Two hours before Game 2, the rink is empty. The ice glistens after being freshly cleaned by a Zamboni, which created the only noise other than pop music that echoed out of arena speakers. In the belly of this old hockey barn, players will dress, preparing for what could be Michigan State's final hockey game of the season.</div><div><br /></div><div>In a place where hockey's excitement brings out the fanatic out of those who fill the stands, lights are dimmed and signs of Game Day life are just beginning to stir. It's an interesting sight. A lifeless hockey rink hoping to see its season-long activity span extended for another day. </div><div><br /></div><div>Only time will tell whether that happens.</div>Jeff Arnoldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04088321986393277112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-224545105779399852.post-12037823007084469112009-09-27T07:56:00.002-04:002009-09-27T08:14:36.575-04:00Linking the present to the pastThe shirt was part of my regular go-to clothes routine.<div>When you're a kid, two pairs of jeans and two or three shirts make up your weekly school wardrobe before your favorites get washed and thrown back into the rotation.</div><div>For me, a blue Michigan football "number shirt" as I called it then was one of my favorites.</div><div>It was blue with the word "Michigan" printed across the front and with a Number 1 prominently displayed on the front the back and on the sleeves.</div><div>In the world of recess and backyard Nerf football, Anthony Carter was the ultimate hero.</div><div>As young boys, we'd watch the Michigan receiver line up on Saturdays, making one spectacular catch after another.</div><div>We didn't consider he was only 19 or 20 at the time, but Carter was the player that all of us wanted to be when we grew up.</div><div>When we'd pick teams, we would also pick players. My group of friends was split right down the middle - half claiming Michigan as their favorites and the other half leaning toward Michigan State.</div><div>Depending on your position, you always had your favorite player. Mine was Anthony Carter. </div><div>After all, I was the only one at the time who had the No. 1 jersey.</div><div>We'd play football for hours, staining the knees of our jeans in the grass and running up remarkable scores like 52-48 before we'd call it quits.</div><div>On Monday mornings at school, we'd talk about the games our college heroes had played two days before, often starting sentences with the words, "Did you see....."</div><div>Now, all these years later, I have grown accustomed to talking to people associated with college sports. It's just what I do.</div><div>I haven't been star struck by interviews since my early days as a sports reporter, seeing my interview subjects as just everyday people who just happen to play sports.</div><div>But on Saturday, a little piece of my childhood came back to me as I stood on the sidelines at Michigan Stadium. Thirty years ago, Anthony Carter and Michigan quarterback John Wangler connected on a 45-yard touchdown pass to beat Indiana as time ran out.</div><div>I was 10 at the time.</div><div>But as I stood in the back of the end zone talking to Carter after he, Wangler and former Michigan running back Butch Woolfolk were recognized as honorary captains, I couldn't help but to think back to those backyard football games.</div><div>Carter, who is now almost 50, spoke of his days of playing for Michigan like they had just finished, never mentioning his days in the USFL with the Michigan Panthers or his brief stint in the NFL.</div><div>He spoke while 108,000 fans surrounded him, reliving the past glories of playing for the Wolverines while watching a team that is undefeated this season.</div><div>During a brief in-game ceremony, Carter was called "College Football's Original No. 1".</div><div>I knew what they were talking about because after all, I once had the shirt to prove it.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Jeff Arnoldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04088321986393277112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-224545105779399852.post-88445548534514303522009-08-15T14:47:00.002-04:002009-08-15T15:01:16.197-04:00Left turns, ear plugs and people watchingThere's nothing quite like life around a race track.<div>It's hot. It's noisy. And most of all, it's loud. Painfully loud.</div><div>But on race day, it's passionately energetic.</div><div>Fans wearing baseball caps with numbers embroidered on them snake through large crowds, hoping to get a closer look at NASCAR's main event.</div><div>For those willing to pay, pit passes allow fanatics to maneuver through the garage area – a virtual backstage pass to the sport's biggest names. Fans carry digital cameras, snapping photos of cars and their drivers, hoping to get a glance at their favorite NASCAR characters.</div><div>Jeff Gordon. Jimmie Johnson. Dale, Jr.</div><div>In racing circles, drivers are known either by their first name or their numbers. In NASCAR parlance, drivers are identified by the number painted on the side of their cars.</div><div>"The 24 car just got loose on Turn 4," race announcers report.</div><div>And without any sort of master roster, fans know where to look and who's in trouble. </div><div>On steamy summer days, fans pack into seating that overlooks the main stage. They whoop and holler, cheering on their favorites.</div><div>At track level, the most passionate of fans walk around with earbuds blaring radio traffic into their ears, keeping track of communications between driver and their crew chief.</div><div>The reporters who cover NASCAR range in knowledge from veteran know-it-alls who have worked in each of the circuit's media rooms to newbies just trying to figure the sport out.</div><div>But spend time walking around the pits and around the garage area and one thing becomes abundantly clear: People who love NASCAR are among the most passionate sports fans that exist.</div><div>On some level, they connect with their heroes – whether it be by wearing the same number they do, drink the same beer they do or drive the same make of car they do. They are self-admitted rednecks, unashamed of their love for auto racing.</div><div>And there's nothing wrong with a little passion for something that gets your engine revved up.</div><div><br /></div>Jeff Arnoldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04088321986393277112noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-224545105779399852.post-53537280628642632842009-08-14T00:50:00.003-04:002009-08-14T00:59:59.278-04:00A different perspectiveOne of the greatest aspects of my journalism career is the people I meet.<div>At times in the past while rushing to chase after the biggest paper and the best beat, I neglected to truly tell stories of the people I met, satisfied to take them at first blush.</div><div>Sam Meija is different.</div><div>I met Sam this week in the offices of a Washtenaw County social services agency that serves the area's homeless population.</div><div>I had read briefly about his story on ESPN.com and in the Detroit Free Press, chronicling a journey that started in North Carolina and that continues at the University of Michigan. In between, Sam - who is 35 – endured being homeless, often spending nights in the woods behind the University of Michigan hospital.</div><div>In the woods, Sam felt safe, creating a barrier between himself and the cruel stares of those who judge people like him.</div><div>Until you get to know him, Sam is quiet and unassuming. But as his personality begins to blossom in front of you, you come to meet a man determined not to be defined by the hand life has dealt him.</div><div>At one stage of his homeless existence, Sam decided that for some reason, he had been cast into this life. But after examining what is inside of him, he found that life's circumstances wouldn't keep him from reaching his full potential.</div><div>He started by completing his GED. He enrolled at a local community college and then transferred to Michigan. He is now studying mechanical engineering – a year after Sara Silvennoinen discovered him in an Ann Arbor homeless shelter.</div><div>Like Sara, I am amazed at the turnabout Sam has brought in his life. Undeterred by his hardships, Sam is determined to make a life for himself – all the while overcoming the odds that have been stacked against him for much of his life.</div><div>So Sam, thanks for the life lesson and thanks for teaching me the valuable lesson that people are often so much more than they first appear.</div><div><br /></div>Jeff Arnoldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04088321986393277112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-224545105779399852.post-16659361731092637572009-08-11T09:54:00.003-04:002009-08-14T00:49:53.012-04:00The new adventure beginsToday, I turn 40.<br /><div>So far, I have gotten one humorous birthday card reminding me of how things were when I was younger. I have gotten my share of Facebook greetings referring to me as Old Man. My favorite came from a college roommate who simply wrote, "Good Lord, you're old."</div><div>It's all good.</div><div>I am sure I pestered friends older than I when they turned the dreaded 4-0. Turnabout is fair play.</div><div>For the past year now, I wondered what my big great adventure would be. One of my college friends climbed Mt. Everest when he turned 40. This summer, he was planning to climb Mt. Kilimanjaro and invited me along.</div><div>I'm not sure he ever made it. Obviously, I did not. But the thought of traveling to Africa to climb a mountain was romantic to think about, leaving me to live vicariousy through my friend Nathan, who traved to Africa to make his own great climb only to discover a much bigger adventure.</div><div>In one of our discussions, Nathan told me not to worry, I would get to Africa one day.</div><div>My Africa, it turns out - at least for now - is finding that my adventure isn't so much a destination, but the greater story discovered on the way.</div><div>In the past few weeks, I have watched my newspaper close, I have begun a new venture at AnnArbor.com and have considered doing some freelance public relations work for friends. I have also been asked to consider working part-time at our church, helping new members become engaged in our congregation by using their gifts to serve the greater good.</div><div>My new adventure includes a change in priorities. After years of defining myself by my journalism career, I have learned that work – while still a passion – can no longer be my identity. There are greater sources of happiness and a greater purpose.</div><div>I will no longer choose to find complete satisfaction in marquee assignments or high-profile bylines. There is more inside of me that is begging to be used to serve a higher purpose.</div><div>The journey to the top of my mountain won't be a short one. Nor will it be completed overnight. But my recent first step into my 40s has reminded me that it's OK to stop and take a glimpse of what's around me rather than focusing solely on the final destination.</div><div>Next stop, Africa.</div><div>And yes, Nathan, one day I will get there.</div><div><br /></div>Jeff Arnoldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04088321986393277112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-224545105779399852.post-72351831383602611092009-07-29T19:58:00.002-04:002009-07-29T20:11:56.273-04:00Not a bad day at the officePart of getting used to the new gig is learning to live without deadlines.<div>As a 24-hour news cycle, Ann Arbor.com thrives on having new stories each time readers log on. So when my editor sent me up to the Buick Open Pro-Am today to see Ann Arbor native Bob Seger play golf with Tiger Woods, I figured it would be an interesting day.</div><div>After finding Woods' group on the 8th hole, I started following them inside the ropes thanks to the media passes the PGA Tour offers reporters.</div><div>Inside the ropes gives reporters access to more of the small talk and informal moments of a round of golf. While much of a country club's decor stands up during a pro-am, players tend to be a bit more relaxed.</div><div>Seger - who was inducted into the Rock &Roll Hall of Fame in 2004, spent much of the day grinding around the course. Before teeing off, he'd often toke on one of the eight cigarettes he smoked during the first 12 holes.</div><div>He played to the large gallery following the group, taking time to sign autographs and joke with fans as he played with the world's No. 1 golfer.</div><div>Three holes after I, along with an Associated Press intern started following Woods' group, Tiger used a small waiting period to come chat. </div><div>It was nothing special - just small talk with a surprisingly laid-back golfer who has the reputation of sending F-bombs to photographers who interrupt his golf swing with their clicking cameras.</div><div>We talked about how Seger was playing and he offered up a hilarious Pro-Am story that is best saved for talk over beers. </div><div>Woods' group ended up shooting 11-under par. I huddled into a cramped interview space to record Tiger's thoughts of coming back for what may be the final Buick Open. He spoke of a lot of joke-telling and story-telling during his Pro-Am round and talked of how being a father has changed his perspective on his line of work.</div><div>From there, it was on to Seger's press conference, which included a lot more laughs and his thoughts of getting his 64-year-old body to last 18 holes of golf.</div><div>On the days when this business offers a less than desirable assignment or an unhappy reader that calls to offer up his option of my latest work, I will think back on this day.</div><div>There's an old analogy which claims that your worst day on the golf course is better than your best day at work.</div><div>Today, I combined the two and enjoyed every minute of it.</div><div>Our little 5-minute chat with Tiger was just the icing on the cake.</div><div><br /></div>Jeff Arnoldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04088321986393277112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-224545105779399852.post-22312035409703813442009-07-28T21:51:00.003-04:002009-07-28T22:01:53.484-04:00Starting offTalk about equal opportunity.<div>On my first day at AnnArbor.com, I walked into a room that looked nothing like a newsroom (by design) and found my seat in a sports department that looked nothing like a sports department.</div><div>I had all of two hours of training on the software we would write in and enough Apple store training classes to know what I was doing with a flip camera and an editing program.</div><div>I had 17 years of reporting experience to fall back on, but I quickly discovered something unique.</div><div>On my first day, pretty much everyone else knew just as much as I did.</div><div>For better or for worse, we were all equals. In it together. Come what may.</div><div>Sink or swim.</div><div>My first week's worth of assignments have been pretty basic. An interview with a college football coach. Covering a local golf tournament. Interviewing Michigan basketball players. Writing stories.</div><div>Our site launched four days ago. We made it through step one.</div><div>For better for worse. Come what may. Sink or swim.</div><div>We were all in it together.</div><div>But blocks away, my friends and colleagues I had left behind were living through Black Thursday. The day we all had dreaded for months was upon our community - both inside and outside of the paper's walls.</div><div>I couldn't bare to drive into work that day. I wrote from home, finishing up a story and a freelance project. Photos and Facebook updates alerted me to what was happening and who had drank how much.</div><div>There were parties and after-parties - a wake for a newspaper that had just been confirmed dead. I thought of my friends, but left the day to them, unsure what I would say if I saw them.</div><div>There were T-shirts that read, "No News is Bad News." So true.</div><div>Now, four days after the final edition ran off the presses, our new journalism venture continues to find its way.</div><div>There are people who like us and those who curse us. Those willing to try us and those who will go their separate ways.</div><div>But we're all in it together. For better or for worse. Come what may. Sink or swim.</div>Jeff Arnoldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04088321986393277112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-224545105779399852.post-19246192435111098572009-07-28T19:49:00.003-04:002009-07-28T19:58:07.653-04:00Catching upThree weeks ago, I faced an uncertain future.<div>Now, it has begun to take shape.</div><div>If even for a short time.</div><div>For months now, I allowed the talk of AnnArbor.com - the new media company replacing The Ann Arbor News - to go on without me. I was determined that I wouldn't be part of an outfit that drove myself and so many of my friends out of work.</div><div>But as time passed and no definite employment opportunities in front of me, I gave in to the talk. I began to pay attention to what was going on with the company. I heard a sales pitch of why I should join the AnnArbor.com team. I created a mental pros and cons list. I wrestled with the idea of becoming a digital journalist.</div><div>A digital journalist? I am a journalist, period.</div><div>But as I went back and forth whether I would become part of the new venture, I came to a conclusion.</div><div>I still want to impact the world with my work. Even if it's working as a sports digital journalist. There are stories left I can tell. The site would offer me new ways to tell them. I could shoot and edit video. I would learn to blog. I would Tweet on Twitter.</div><div>So two weeks before the paper was to close, I accepted a job with the dot.com as it has become known among my Ann Arbor journalism friends. </div><div>I cleaned out my desk at the paper and moved my belongings to our new work space a few blocks away. I said my goodbyes at one office and my hellos at another.</div><div>I am thinking this is only the beginning of my great new adventure.</div>Jeff Arnoldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04088321986393277112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-224545105779399852.post-68626312567447904442009-07-02T10:00:00.003-04:002009-07-02T10:08:05.399-04:00Crunch timeIn three weeks, The Ann Arbor News will cease to exist.<div>For many of us, I'm not sure the finality of the event has completely sunk in. But in the last week, the seriousness of the situation has hit me.</div><div>As of right now, I have no full-time work lined up after July 23. Both of the employment options I thought were in place have fallen through. I have spent the past five days reaching out to everyone I can, inquiring about possible openings in their media organizations.</div><div>So far, nothing.</div><div>There are good days and bad. On the days when I find stories to work on, I am energized by the profession I still love. On days when there is little work, my mind starts to creep into the realm of the uncertain.</div><div>The questions are everyone.</div><div>What are you going to do?</div><div>Are you going back to school?</div><div>Will you keep writing?</div><div>Those around me are optimistic.</div><div>"Oh, you will be fine," they tell me.</div><div>"You're too good not to be working as a journalist."</div><div>"I'm sure you will land on your feet."</div><div>So far, nothing has presented itself to let me know that is true.</div><div>My faith is being stretched like silly putty. I know this is where God wants me. My career is not my own. Things happen in His time, not mine.</div><div>I must be patient. But that - especially when it comes to my career and contributing to covering our bills - is tough. I waver from self-confident to doubtful. My emotions run from hopeful to angry.</div><div>I tell myself not to worry. I try to let go. But then all at once, everything comes rushing back.</div><div>Three weeks. Twenty-one days. Crunch time.</div><div><br /></div>Jeff Arnoldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04088321986393277112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-224545105779399852.post-13795266766817729112009-06-03T17:09:00.002-04:002009-06-03T17:15:41.861-04:00Making it officialWith six weeks left before the closing of the paper, I signed documents today, officially accepting a severance from The Ann Arbor News.<div>The exercise was painless, lasting all of five minutes.</div><div>I signed my name twice and wrote in a date of the latest I will be paid. I slid the papers across to a notary who stamped them and put my forms in a pile with the others.</div><div>I returned to my desk and went back to the story I had begun working on a few hours earlier.</div><div>And just like that, the last step of my departure - other than cleaning out my desk - was complete.</div><div>Every day, the closing of the paper gets a little more real. People ask me what I am going to do and what's going to replace the newspaper.</div><div>I answer the questions politely, knowing it's not their fault that the paper that has served Ann Arbor for the past 174 years is closing.</div><div>In the next six weeks, I will stay busy. I have to. It's my way of putting off the reality of not knowing what lays ahead.</div><div>I have a couple of stories I am really excited about. I know they will demand my time and full attention – two things I am happy to surrender while I wait to learn of where I will be next.</div><div><br /></div>Jeff Arnoldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04088321986393277112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-224545105779399852.post-41967814098687568512009-05-27T22:52:00.002-04:002009-05-27T23:00:01.012-04:00What are you fighting for?I understand the question. I really do.<div>Those who have heard about the Ann Arbor News closing have asked me if I am going to do something new.</div><div>It's a fair question. One of I have considered hundreds of times.</div><div>At times, it seems logical that I would move on to a new career, leaving behind 17 years of wonderful memories of stories I've written, places I have visited.</div><div>I think back to my first job. A courts and cops reporting job that threw me into the world of reporting head-first.</div><div>I remember sitting in a small courtroom in a historic courthouse, sitting through a week-long rape trial. </div><div>Every I story I wrote was re-written by an editor who knew the area better and had the luxury of knowing the history of the case.</div><div>As frustrated as I was having my work torn apart, it pushed me to get to the point where editors changed words or punctuation marks. Not sentences or complete paragraphs.</div><div>Seventeen years later, I am still learning. Still yearning to write stories that people remember. To tell stories in ways people will talk about the next day at work. </div><div>I read other people's work and see what is possible when words and reporting come together the right way.</div><div>So am I ready to give up the fight? Not in the least.</div><div>Not when I am getting closer to the goal I have always held for myself.</div>Jeff Arnoldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04088321986393277112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-224545105779399852.post-71366805807103812062009-05-27T22:51:00.001-04:002009-05-27T22:51:54.977-04:00Signing on the dotted line<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(41, 48, 59); font-size: 13px; ">I knew this day was coming.<div>The email arrived almost two weeks ago, alerting Ann Arbor News employees that, within the next day or two, a letter containing the details of our severance package would be coming in the mail.</div><div>Two days later, two envelopes – one containing a letter from publisher Laurel Champion, the other holding the terms of my severance – came in the Saturday mail.</div><div>There, in contract form, where the specifics of my departure from the newspaper where I have spent nearly the past five years of my career.</div><div>In previous weeks, I had done my best to focus on life after The Ann Arbor News. What would I do? Where would I work? Where would money come from?</div><div>But as I read through the contents of the two envelopes, one thing came to mind. </div><div>This was a short-term fix. Short-term meaning a matter of weeks that I could expect to continue receiving money from the newspaper.</div><div>Within five weeks, the money would stop, the benefits would disappear and if, I hadn't found my next career stop, we would be on our own.</div><div>Earlier this week, I sat in an hour-long meeting. My co-workers and I sat in a large conference room having our severance packages explained to us by the publisher and head of human resources.</div><div>There were questions. Concerns. Frustrations.</div><div>Ah, to be right in the middle of limbo once again.</div></span>Jeff Arnoldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04088321986393277112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-224545105779399852.post-80013402638167197212009-05-14T00:28:00.000-04:002009-05-14T00:37:20.473-04:00Just starting out<div><br /></div><div>Ok.</div><div>So maybe 12:30 a.m. isn't the best time to start a blog.</div><div>But for nearly two months - ever since the publisher of my newspaper walked into a conference room on a Monday morning and announced that come July, our 174-year-old paper would cease to exist – this has been on my mind.</div><div>For much of my adult existence, newspaper has been my life.</div><div>Started on cops and courts. Moved onto general assignment. Jumped to sports. Moved to California. Stayed in sports, took a break from the business, jumped back into sports and reached what I thought was the place I wanted to be.</div><div>But after 1 1/2 years of working for a bureau of the L.A. Times, something happened that changed the way I looked at my career and where I was going.</div><div>More on that later.</div><div>So I moved again. This time to Tennessee, where I worked as in sports. Moved to Missouri to go to toughen up as an investigative reporter. Got married and moved back to Michigan, where my career had begun some 12 years before.</div><div>Nearly five years later, I am about to turn 40 with the industry I love in serious jeopardy. Most of my friends have bailed from what, on days, appears to be a sinking ship.</div><div>But I choose to stay on deck, listening to the band play, "Nearer My God to Thee."</div><div>What is ahead isn't quite clear.</div><div>So if you are up for the ride, climb on board and follow me into the next chapter of my life.</div><div>Who knows, riding out the story could prove to be the adventure of a lifetime.</div>Jeff Arnoldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04088321986393277112noreply@blogger.com0